The Evil Flu and First Steps

This past weekend was by far one of the hardest weekends I've ever experienced as a new mom. On Friday night I started throwing up like crazy. Not like pregnancy throwing up which is what I am use to, but insane every 10 minutes throwing up. I thought that I for sure had food poisoning. It was awful. All night I practically slept next to the toilet in tears as I was begging for it to stop. In the morning my husband and I went to check on Lily and she was covered in throw up. My poor baby was hunched over as I held her over the bathtub as she threw up. I have never felt so helpless in my life as I watched my little baby being so sick. I wanted to take all of the pain away, but I couldn't....especially since I was worse. I was freezing with a fever, shaking, weak, you name it.....I was pathetic. And to top it off....my husband got it Saturday night and now he's sick. Thankfully It passed after about 12-18 hours, but my house was chaos this weekend. I had every intention to get some projects done, organize a few things, spring cleaning....wrong. All I got done was load after load of laundry that had throw up on it. As soon as I finished one, Lily would throw up on something else. It was never ending.

My baby took her first steps on Friday April 15th, 2011. I was on the couch watching her play with her toys as she turned around, said mama and walked towards me. She has taken 2-4 steps, but fell down so I really didn't count that as "walking" yet. But on Friday she took about 8 steps and was for sure walking to her mama. I cried cried cried.

I am a mom who is working full time. Doing my best to be super mom and wife. Trying to not miss out on any of Lily's firsts.....but its really difficult. Thankfully I have a wonderful mother-in-law that watches our baby for a few days while I am working, Lily is very loved, spending time with her grandma, and loving when I drop her off in the mornings. Grandma sings songs to her, plays with her, and spoils her rotten I'm sure. Without my mother-in-laws help from the beginning I would have been a disaster to go to work after my maternity leave was up. I would have had to do daycare which was made me nervous since I wouldn't know who was watching my baby, if she would have one on one care and attention, and the cost....well we just couldn't take that on either. She made me feel at ease knowing everything was okay and she would take great care of our baby....and she did and we are so thankful for her help.

I am also blessed with a wonderful friend Tiffany that watches Lily a few days a week along with her two kids. I love that her oldest Andrew is sad that he has to go to school because he will miss Lily too much. She is so wonderful with Lily. We have been friends for a really long time and I would do anything for her. She has been so wonderful in helping us out. Such a blessing to have her as a friend and such an important role in my Lily's life.