Happy 1st Birthday Jaxon Hawk.

I can't believe our baby boy is one today.  I feel like he was born just yesterday.  Everything is still so fresh in my mind. (If you want to read Jaxon's birth story click here).  How hard it was to be on strict bed rest laying on my back (click here), not being allowed to sit up while my husband worked night shift, having to humble myself to have other people give us help.  I'll never forget when I found out I was pregnant with him (click here).  I was terrified.  I had no idea how on earth I was going to be able to take care of two babies, when I barely had the hang of one.  But somehow.....everything just worked.  Now I feel like he has always been here and my life wouldn't be the same without his sweet smile.  I love everything about having a little boy.  I will never forget the first time I saw him.  How I was completely in love with him and was so overwhelmed with pure happiness. 

On a day where I should be overjoyed about my baby hitting his first birthday, I am honestly really sad about it.  It went by so fast.  I feel so guilty for having to work and feeling like I missed so much.  Though its bittersweet, I do love watching him grow and change every single day.  In just 3 months his face changed so much.   

 He is getting so big.  He says Mama and Dada.  He crawls so fast and gets into everything.  He walks along side furniture, but isn't ready to fully commit to walking.  Honestly I am in no hurry to see him walk.  That means he is no longer my baby....it also means I will be chasing him around and never stop moving.  He roars like a lion.  He loves bath time.  He crawls around with his favorite little bear.  He gives the sweetest baby kisses.  He drinks sooooooo much milk and eats and eats and eats.  He is all boy!   

At 5 weeks old, my best friend Desire started watching both of our babies along with 4 of her own while i went to work.  It amazes me everyday, how she can do it all.  She loves my kids just as much as I do and I could not have survived this past year without her.   

 I am so over the moon happy to have our little boy in our lives making our family complete and full of love. Our family of 5 makes me smile everyday and I adore being a busy mom of 3.

Jax's party is this weekend and I can't wait to celebrate with our family and watch Jax dive into his cake.